Don't pick up it isn't Your calling or Is it?

Hey Readers, welcome back for another great read. My last blog I touched base on my first experience dating outside my race and well this read is the total opposite, but Im sure you'll enjoy just as much as the topic.

So lately Ive been going through this stage of being tested in all areas of my life but the one area that I'm being tested the most is in Business.

As some and most may know Ive been working on building my brand and business full time for the last year and half and let me say baby it has and isn't for the weak. Now don't get me wrong I knew it would be a lot of work, time and money investing into something you want to be successful at and deliver to the masses to enjoy as much as you but I will be honest what I wasn't ready for was the frustration behind the people I have allowed to be on my team really believing they had my best interest at heart and in turned had the least bit of faith in me. Most of them were men who just seen an opportunity to really elevate for their own selfish motives.

Now I won't lie when I started to see who was in my circle and really used my skill of decernment I was heart broken. These were individuals I shared my everyday life with, my secrets, talked abut family with and much more. So to me I didn't look at them as just business partners I liked at them as family who al wanted to eat, but nope they just wanted to see what kind of silverware I had so they knew how to stab me in the back before the meal even came.

I spent thousands of dollars during the middle of a pandemic all to secure a bag that's didn't even secured YET. You probrobaly thinking "whys she complaining?" and honestly Im notI stating the fact that sometimes when under a lot of pressure with the wrong people in your ear you can decide in things that may not be really meant for you and your destiny.

Now I am a woman of prayer, some think I should be a Priest lol maybe one day in the future. However, with that being said The Most High has heard everyone of my dreams, desires and wants. The Most High understands my heart and my passion for anything I do, so when I prayed to have a business I knew I would be provided with what I needed and also running against obstacles I never faced.

Was I ready for this challenge yes but also no. I am now asking myself a ton of questions about one of my business endeavors I chose to choose. I am questioning if this particular avenue I should continue to push forward or wash my hands of it?

I am not asking these questions or wanting to walk away because of the hard work or money, however every thing I thought could've went wrong has. I have been through at least 3 different manufactures, had to argue to someone trying to steal my name and my brand, faulty contracts, dealt with numerous individuals who lacked respect for my ideas, lacks communication and doesn't appreciate when I speak up, because they feel like they know a lot more than I do. Which could be right but I never want to put something Im building in the hands of someone who can't teach and lead a woman who actually wants to grow in the field but yet knocks me down and thinks im not competent enough to understand.

I honestly believe God is telling me this particular path I put myself on wasn't in my cards or to complete the product but yet to understand those that were around me and to remove those people out of my circle in order to move forward. I also believe or should I say Know this was also a step for me to realize how much I was missing as far as knowing how to run a business from documents to legit resources.

Did you catch it when I said "The path I put myself on?"

Because we have these grand ideas or thoughts we often times believe that particular road is what we're suppose to be on. I believed this road was for me until I realized the product I am building I can't stand 100% behind because I don't wear or use this product daily.

I said November, you're coming out with a Sports bra line but hate wearing bras, make that make sense. And since I thought of it like that my drive for it has never been the same. My gut is telling me no. My spirit is uneasy every time I get a email from the agency im working with. By boobs itch knowing my whole goal was to build a triple D and up line and now Im down to sports bra that I only wear in the gym if that.

I know this post was kinda lengthy but its what's im going through right now and wanted to share. Should I pick up the phone or hang it up? Is this path for me or was it a learning curve to prepare me?

That is the question I am now manifesting and praying on so I can see the answer clearer. By no means am I giving up if anything Im going to push harder. So pray for me and my entrepreneurial journey to see what is next for me.

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Like always thanks for reading and stopping by, I always apprecte the love, feedback and others outlooks.

With Love and Light

*Nove